El Oso - Lyrics

All lyrics received directly from the band and are by M. Doughty unless otherwise noted. Publishedby Our Pal Dolores/WB unless otherwise noted

Rolling

I'm rolling. I've got to get a new balm. I've got to get a tight tension on. I've got to slip it up before the rush gets gone. I've got to feel it with the hot mind on. I'm rolling. Hey Norman, was it thrown with a broken arm? Bottle it up, to keep it warm. I'm rolling. I know you got it but you got to go; I'm gonna get into the batter so the mix might glow. I hate to do it, but I did it though; I'm gonna bite into the body like the risk is no risk. I got the souped-up car and what you call tripping on the boom-bap etymological. I ride the fader and I ride it low; I'm gonna slip into the field like Han Solo. I'm rolling. One, two, into the amplifier, the electrified two, into the amplifier, and you got to get to, into the amplifier, one-two into the amplifier. I'm rolling.

Misinformed

His eyes go funny, you can't place why. All dolled up in bellhop drag.

It is like a burden to the beat, to the long gone.

I was once misinformed about your intentions.

Were you right to burn the rock star? Were you right to drop the roster?

One dollar bill, one dollar bill. Nah nah nah.

Circles

When you were languishing in rooms I built to foul you in. And when the wind set down in funnel form and pulled you in.

I don't need to walk around in circles.

And when the ghostly dust of violence traces everything. And when the gas is drained, just wreck it, you insured the thing.

But I can't sigh now that you made the move; it has gone and gone to dogs; lay down on the floor. For the right price I can get everything; slip into the car; go driving to the farthest star.

Blame

Blame
Is the cure
Cure anything
Throw the rudder down
Throw the rudder down
Broad
Latitude
Broad latitude
Throw the rudder down
Throw the rudder down

St. Louise is Listening

ST. LOUISE IS LISTENING.

I stopped the thought before its drip became insistent. I rubbed it out and loved the spot where it was missing. She's widely known, the only maquereau that pays her taxes. I got to box her for the money.

You don't use words like that--St. Louise is listening.

You rang the Eskimo to meet you at the station. Oh he's like milk to you, half-Swedish and half-Asian. And your aphasia strikes a bargain with the barter yardie. I got to box you for the money.

I could be your baby-doll. I could be your doll, baby. I could be the thing you want. I could do it all for you.

Let me get up on it. Let me. Let me.

Maybe I'll Come Down

Dumb dumb dumb bah did uh dumb.

I need time to scrounge the rent. Need time to contemplate the accident. I got to drag my ass to Now. How did I come to stop here? And oh I knew the gas was gone, but I had to rev the motor. Pull back the hand you might get it cut off in the rotor.

Maybe I'll come down.

She's on Loretta's turf. She's on Loretta's side. She's in a better state. She feels a better fire. And oh I dreamed a great parade, shooting all the guns in Brooklyn. The man who had a spare held out two and then you took one.

Freeze or burn; all else is only icing. Pack your bags, assman!

Houston

I met a girl on rollerskates. She had a spare bag. She had lost some weight. Where I used to work, she was a waitress. She proposed a trade. It was generous.

She's gone to Houston, feel like I'm floating in a warm sea. And if she finds out when she comes back, I know that she will leave me.

Oh I heard a sign--it was a dull crack. It was a clock hand. It was a snapping back. Oh it wasn't hers--it was the dope's kiss. I'll take the blame upon my shoulder; I just love to feel like this.

Roller boogie, motherfucker.

$300

Lifting me up like a garage door; I need to feel it when the drug starts coming on. I know you Lord are a jealous lord. I know the tablet is your competition.

And I need for you to be reasonable.

How much? She said, For three hundred dollars, I'll do it.

Beating me down just like a rain storm. I need to feel it when the rain starts coming on. I know the skin is a jealous skin. I know the sky it is its competition.

Fully Retractable

Shooed out like a house fly
This house was half my mind
I don't dispute the doubts you've outlined
But it's my right to waste your time

These things
May come to be
and these things
won't kill me
and these things
it stands to reason
these things
please tell me

throw out the la-la by the busload
Match the photo to the description
I do indeed and shall continue
Dispatch the shiftless man to points beyond

and spieling
so ceaselessly
is my grief
please spare me
your feelings
the spattering
it bores me
don't test me

and half-masted
bass boosted
sling-backed
fully retractable

Burned in on the 8th of May
She was spectacular
I walk the halfmoon by the busstop
sliding cross the street to her

Monster Man

Stop hitching with the monster man, it was a bad plan, but I had to get to town. Unbitten, but the way I found it was a hand came down and pow! I got illuminated.

That's why I have got my mind in my own.

Hand over the wave. Hand over the water. The realest of the real.

It's like the burnout said: phenomenon.

To the ruder bar in a Buddha-plump van. It was a stamped can. It was a clamor understanding, and all you people jumping but we raised the bar. You're dumber than a box of rocks. Give up, star.

The inscrutable. The irrefutable. The undisputed.

Makes me go on a dig.

Pensacola

Oh pride is not a sin, and that's why I have gone on down to Wal-Mart with my checkbook just to get you some.

Like waves in which you drown me, shouting.

I know you must've realized by now.

And by the lawnchairs there, next to the racks of guns, your self-esteem is waiting, canned up in aluminum.

I Miss The Girl

Daughter to the pop veneer. Shining like a new mint quarter. Shining like the Franklin Mint. Seedy like the lampshade quarter. Rolling with the dopes you know. Rolling with the wrong gun on you. Going down to Baltimore. Going in an off-white Honda. Oh I miss the girl, miss the girl, miss the girl, I want to give myself to water. Speeding to the rupture line. Rat-a-tatting boombox moocher. Darling with the boop shuh-nai. Rat-a-tatting lose your future.

I dream that she aims to be the bloom upon my misery.

She rocks mop style, she needs the rest.

And I know it's not the same thing

So Far I Have Not Found The Science

I don't mind worry following me like a dinosaur. I don't fear I am descending into the molten core. So far, I have not found the science, but the numbers keep on circling me.

I'm gonna give you most of mine--I'm gonna give it if I don't slip you.

The Incubent

New York, New York, I won't go back--indelible reminder of the steel I lack. I gave you seven years, what did you give me back? A jaw-grind, disposition to a panic attack.

On this side, the incumbent. And who quoth: There's only one everything. Red sucker mouth.

The El Oso Novella-

M. Doughty describes the recording of El Oso

1.

The studio Tchad Blake uses is the one he's been working at since he was a

lowly assistant engineer; now it's virtually his second home. Every musical

item he's collected in the past ten years is stored over there--the recording

room is this wondrous junkpile of effects pedals, old keyboards, guitars,

strange amplifiers and speakers, and all kinds of bizarre musical miscellany.

He's got a huge trunk filled only with toys--toy xylophones, party

noisemakers, whistles, a plastic apple with a smiley face painted on and

little chimes inside it. The room looks like the laboratory of a mad and

messy scientist. We've hatched many a plan to bilk the record company and

record in some exotic locale--Harare and Malta have come up--but the fact is

that Tchad can't move his shit. He's never had to.

 

So recording a song would usually go like this; a basic track is laid down,

then a vocal, and then while Tchad spends an hour hitting switches and knobs

everybody else is running to the junkpile and writing riffs. And when Tchad

is done knob-twiddling, suddenly I've got a vocal harmony through the

Ahuja--an Indian P.A. system with a huge bullhorn for a speaker--Mark's got a

celeste part to overdub, Yuval's been elongating and fucking with a vocal

sample from another track, and Sebastian's got a part for Hammond pedals.

 

By the time we'd be done tracking a song, the tracks would be overgrown with

weird bits and overdubs. So the rough-mixing usually involved hacking out

large bits of wild underbrush, cutting down to the essence of the song.

 

A number of songs--"Rolling," "Misinformed," "Monster Man," "Needle to the

Bar," and others whose titles elude me because I lent my friend Jason my

cassette of the rough mixes--started out with vocal and drums alone, and the

rest of the song was augured with the aforementioned process. Yuval's got

these sort of genre-areas of beats, like little cells with infinite

variations. I got a tape of a bunch of them when we demoed in San Francisco

last June,

went down to Pensacola, loaded them into my sampler, looped them, and wrote

melodies to them.

 

So the prime tension of the songs would be the tension between the words and

the tunings of the drums, the intricacies of the beat. That's a switch for

us--usually the words would exist in a tension with a guitar part, and then

when we got into the studio either an arrangement would come up around the

guitar part, or everybody would be fucking around with a groove that'd turn

out to be pretty dope, and I'd take a song that was previously nailed to a

guitar part, remove the guitar part and layer the melody over the new groove.

"Super Bon Bon" is a decent example of the latter, "The Idiot Kings" is a

decent example of the former.

 

When we got to Los Angeles, I'd play the drum-loops onto the tape, then do

the vocal and the harmony vocal. Then Yuval would go into the drum booth and

expound on the drum-loops, variation after variation. Then we'd remove the

loop, so it'd just be the live drums and the vocals, and everybody would go

wild piling shit on top of that. A few hours later we'd have a song.

 

Other than the songs we've been doing live--for which we just went into the

room, picked up our instruments, and played them--it was a remarkably

different process for us, where usually nobody would know where the song was

going until it had gotten there. I formed Soul Coughing because I was sick of

dreaming up arrangements in my head and attempting to translate them to

actual musicians--I wanted to bring in the melodies and have the song develop

according to whatever inkling anybody wanted to follow, to not have to spell

out or explain to make a song into a song. Over the years, even that process

has gotten familiar. It gets more difficult with every record to surprise

everybody else.

 

2.

This record is thus far without a gangadank. A gangadank is a kind of guitar

rhythm that I invented in an attempt to recreate a hiphop groove on an

acoustic guitar--it goes, gangadank, gank-guh-did-dank--that nowadays I

gravititate to naturally every time I pick up the guitar. "Chicago," "The

Idiot Kings," "Moon Sammy,"--all examples of gangadanks. There are numerous

superstitions about gangadanks within Soul Coughing--no two gangadanks in a

row in a given set list, for example. There are also arguments about the defintion

of a gangadank--Mark, for instance, maintains that "Idiot" is a false

gangadank, because though there is a clear gangadank being played on the

guitar, the heart of the song is the bassline. Gentleman Jim defines the

gangadank as any song with an integral guitar part--thus making "Soundtrack

to Mary" a gangadank, a song that actually utilizes a guitar rhythm I call a

choogler.

 

There's an essential tension in that Yuval is loathe to play the same beat

twice, while I move towards the things I love and know, invariably. It's a

tension between the big pop obvious and the sophisticated curve ball. I'm

kinda unresolved on the question myself--take the Stones, for instance, who

perfected an unmistakeable and individual groove, used it brilliantly for ten

years, and now are utterly stuck. Does this mean that if they sought out new

grooves they wouldn't be stuck now? Or would they have missed out on the

brilliant perfection of a groove at the heart of their identity? And do any

of these questions justify me contrasting my lowly hiphop band to a

Gargantuan Legend of Big Rock?

 

Gus Brandt is the most vocal exponent of the gangadank. Every time we speak,

he goes, "You need some of them gangadanks, Habba. The kids, they yearn for

more gangadanks." The one gangadank we had been playing live for a couple of

years, "Don't Go Wreck the Car," wasn't recorded--there's still a chance we

might track it when we go back to Los Angeles to mix in late January--and I

think it broke Gus' heart.

 

3.

Tchad Blake is sitting around the Sound Factory's lounge telling stories

about mixing the Dandy Warhols record. "So I get the tape," he says, "and

it's this real straight rock stuff, and I start mixing it like that, like I

heard it. And then the guy comes down and listens and he's totally not into

it. 'No, no,' he says, 'I want the whole song to trip out here, and I want a

weird digital delay here, and I want the vocals to distort really extremely

here...' I mean, I was totally baffled. That's not what I heard on the tape

at all."

 

"So, Tchad Blake," I say, "what you're saying is that it confuses you that

someone would hire you for your *TchadBlakeness*?"

 

4.

We stayed in a hotel just above Hollywood Boulevard, behind the Chinese

Theater. It was affixed to a nightclub for magicians, and was minorly

magic-themed. In the parking garage below the hotel, the parking spaces were

all spraypaint-stenciled with the names of magicians. I always hoped nobody

was parked in the Siegfried and Roy space when we got home from the studio.

But it was always taken. I wondered what would happen if Siegfried and Roy

showed up and found their space was occupied.

 

I don't drive, so every day I'd walk down Hollywood Boulevard to the studio,

down the walk of fame. I'd get my coffee at the joint in the ground floor of

the Roosevelt Hotel, which runs parallel to a stretch of stars that includes

the Everly Brothers, William Haines, Jo Van Fleet, Cybill Shephard, and Angie

Dickinson. I always sat at the table adjacent to Cybill Shephard. And, invaria

bly, sometimes more than once in the span of two triple-lattes, a

tourist couple would amble by, staring at the sidewalk, and exclaim "Oh!

Cybill Shephard!" They would then proceed to videotape her star. Every day.

 

I watched "Girl 6" on cable one night--the most depressing movie ever, and

written by a woman, Suzan-Lori Parks, that I used to study playwriting with.

There's this one part where Spike Lee asks Theresa Randle "Is there a phone

sex hall of fame?" like that's the ulimate measure of an endeavour's

worthiness. And then the next morning I was suddenly attuned to the

subtle--maybe random--hierarchy in this, the ultimate in halls of fame. For

instance--why

do the Everly Brothers share a single star, while Bud Abbott and Lou Costello

get independant stars, located five long Los Angeles blocks from one another?

How come Liberace has two stars, one with the little brass two-mask theater

symbol, and one with the little brass record? And what of poor Jo Van Fleet,

forever slighted by the love heaped upon her neighbor, Cybill Shephard?

 

The day after John Denver died, down the block a star had a wreath set up on

a kind of easel. I assumed it was John Denver, but in fact it was a silent

film star from the 20's--I forget her name, it was no one I'd heard of, and

if there's anything I know it's silent film stars--that had died at a nursing

home in the San Fernando Valley a few days previous. In the middle of the

wreath someone had taped up a xerox of the one-paragraph obituary.

 

5.

Casual--the rapper from Oakland, one of the Hieroglyphics crew that includes

Del tha Funkee Homosapien and Souls of Mischief--came down to do the verses

on a song called "Needle to the Bar." For kicks, we put up the reel of "212"

and let him freestyle over the tracks. Now, Casual is, in my estimation,

maybe the greatest rapper still working out there, with an incredible sense

of melody. For me it was kind of like, say, if you were in the horn section

of some Orange County ska band, and Coltrane were to come in and overdub your

parts for you.

 

The first take was astounding--he hadn't heard the track before, so each

switch in dynamics, each time the tune shifted, it would throw him off a

little. It was kind of like watching a trapeze artist suddenly in mid-air,

stretching for the next bar. Absolutely amazing. He did one take, and then

another, and he kept going--like he was trying to top himself, each take

entirely different from the last. We ended up with like six tracks of

individual

freestyle takes.

 

6.

Warner Bros. bought us a video camera with which to immortalize the dull

studio life, and I used it to make a brief demo of Yuval Gabay to submit to

"House of Style." If this band ever should do anything, Yuval Gabay should at

least have his own regular segment on house of style.

 

Doughty: What do you have to say about style, Yuval?

 

Yuval: Style, yes. Style. Highly.

 

Doughty: What kind of style do you like, Yuval?

 

(pause)

 

Yuval: House of Style! House of Style!

 

7.

T-Bone Burnett once said: Recording studios are breeding grounds for despair.

 

This is mostly true--endless dreary hours waiting for microphones to be set

up and drums to be tuned. Myself, I usually get driven a little crazy

listening to my voice over and over again. At some point it occurs to me that

I am not, in fact, Mary J. Blige, and I wonder why the fuck I'm doing this

for a living. I bring shitloads of books but can't read anything but

magazines. I bring a notebook but don't write anything down in it but phone

numbers.

 

Weirdly and wondrously, though, I came through these six weeks of recording

without hating myself. Though we were mostly writing the arrangements in the

studio--making it an unusually slow process for us, we averaged one song

every two days were usually we've done three in as much time--in seemed to

move incredibly quickly. Dull stretches would come every once in a while, and

because the rest of the time was so smooth and productive, they'd seem

particularly brainsapping and tortuous. All said, though, this record was a

joy to record. I'm a little uneasy that no Crisis of Self happened while we

were in there.

 

Tchad has a unique sanity when it comes to record-making. You start at noon,

you're done by nine p.m. The generally accepted method is to start at 2 pm

and work far into the morning, at which point you're completely exhausted and

it's driving you absolutely mad that that one little stretch between the

chorus and the next verse can't seem to find the little musical gem it needs.

You work yourself past the point of usefulness. Tchad has come to the

amazing discovery that the less time you spend in the studio, the more work

you actually get done. "Mitchell {Froom, the producer Tchad works with often}

and I would tell Los Lobos we were starting at noon and none of them would

show up until dinnertime," he said. "And the records always got done ahead of

schedule."

 

Equipment geeks take note: the mic used predominately for the vocals was a

D112, a mic usually used for kick drums. Maybe that's why I didn't spend my

days despising my own tone.

 

8.

Mark speaks his own inscrutable language, one that can only be learned

through usage. There'd be parts of songs--usually long jammy bits around the

ends--that he'd hear and say, "Oh, that's lumber. That's lumber right there.

Gotta get that lumber out of there."

 

And: "You know, I think I need to do a little more sloganeering on this

song."

 

9.

Randall Davis Kaye came down to the studio every other evening or so, and had

dinner and got stoned with us. It is the general practice of people that work

at record companies to attempt meaningful musical dialogue, to use words like

'bridge' and 'hook' and have no real idea what these words mean in context.

For avoiding these words entirely, RDK is a genius among record company

people.

 

"Oh, I don't care," he would say. "I just want your band to buy me a house."

 

One night he came down and we played for him the keeper take of "St. Louise

Is Listening" at an insanely loud volume. After it faded out, there was a

long pause.

 

"Okay," RDK said, finally, "I'm visualizing a front porch."

 

10.

Warner Bros. asked us to record a Christmas song to send out to radio

stations on a CD with a bunch of acoustic performances we did at radio

stations over the past year. So our publishing company sent over a big stack

of paper, lists of song titles, all of their Christmas song properties. We

selected the more interesting-sounding titles with a highligher pen and sent

it back to them. The titles included: "Little Donkey," "I'm Gonna Lasso Santa

Claus," "Santa Claus Go Straight To The Ghetto," and "What Do You Get A

Wookie For Christmas (When He Already Has A Comb)?"

 

"Wookie" was the clear contender until we discovered that the sheet music was

xeroxed poorly and we couldn't read the melody. So we cut "Suzie Snowflake,"

a particularly evil little slice of mass-produced Christmas cheer, written by

Roy Brodsky and Sid Tepper in the mid-50's. We played it with a total

pokerface--Tchad on bells, Mark on celeste, Yuval on sleighbells, Sebastian

on a Zamfir-style plastic pan pipe. What was meant to be a one-hour toss

off turned into a full day's toil. I mean, we took that song as seriously as

any of the songs made for the record, with overdub after overdub. Yuval

translated the lines "Here comes Suzie Snowflake/dressed in a snow-white

gown/tap-tap-tappin' at your window pane/to tell you she's in town" into

Hebrew and recited them over the midsection.

 

In the middle of the recording process I had an attack of chronic migraines.

I know that I'm getting one when I see a little spot at the center of my

vision; in the course of an hour the spot grows until the entire field of my

vision is a sheet of shimmering, painful light. When that subsides, god-awful

pain and nausea begins. I had ten migraines in two weeks, which is

exceptional even for me. And every time I saw the spot I went back to the

hotel

and lay in my dark room.

 

And as I'd lay there in the dark, a little, insidious melody would sprout in

my head: "Here comes Suzie Snowflake/dressed in a snow-white gown..."

 

11.

I was walking to the studio down Hollywood Boulevard one morning, and as I

waited at a crosswalk a baby-blue pickup truck screetched to a halt in front

of me. The three Mexican guys sitting in it started yelling "Hey! Clown!

Clown! You fucking Clown! Ha ha ha!"

 

And for a moment I was wondering why three Mexican guys in a powder-blue

pickup truck would randomly select me for taunting, but then I turned around

and a saw a forlorn man standing behind me, wearing a clown suit.

 

12.

We had--are still having, actually--tremendous troubles recording "Maybe I'll

Come Down." I'm unsure why. We've learned to play the song live--maybe we

learned too well to rely on the space of the rooms we were playing it in. We

learned how to let the song hang in the air, to hear the expanse of the hall

as an integral part of the song. So how to get that onto tape? We haven't

figured it out yet. On tape it sounds small and flat--like the song's in

powder form, we haven't discovered what water to add.

 

Other songs had happier and quicker discoveries. There's a song called

"Pensacola" that we came up with at a soundcheck the last time we were in

Minneapolis. Basically, Sebastian started playing this bassline and I

remembered this song I had recently decided was chordally uninteresting and

junked. So I started singing it over the bassline, in a Billy Bragg

imitation--a loud-ass cockney bellow from deep in the gut. But I guess I

found something useful

in the caricature; Gentleman Jim hounded me about the song for weeks

afterwards, saying "Man, that Pensacola song, you really *sing* on that

thing, I've never heard you *sing* like that."

 

When we got into the studio we tried it with just the bass and the vocal, but

it wasn't working, and while we glumly checked our monitor levels for another

take, I turned up my vocal real loud in my headphones and sort of slurred the

lyrics to hear the volume. And Mark, who was in the control room, exclaimed,

"Oh, man, you gotta do a take like that!" So I did--real low and wan and

whispery. It sounded absolutely nothing like me.

 

It sounded fucking dreadful to me. "Erase that," I said, "I sound like a

drunk guy." But they pleaded. "Uh-uh, no," I said, "no drunk-guy-vocal."

 

So I redid the vocal in the Billy Bragg bellow, and we laid out the other

parts around it. It didn't sound particularly special. Then Tchad, with a

mischievious look on his face, hit a button and the old drunk-guy vocal comes

in. The thing is, when I redid the vocal I did it a little off from where the

drunk-guy vocal was, so everything we'd layered on top was slightly out of

whack, slightly off-kilter. And it sounded beautiful.

 

RDK's reaction was; "Is that you? It doesn't sound like you. Nobody's gonna

know that's you."

 

Gentleman Jim's reaction was; "It's good. I like it. But I miss the show-tune

thing."

 

13.

At one point in the hours and hours of fuckaround tapes we have, there's this

bit where Mark's playing the piano chords from Radiohead's "Karma Police,"

and I'm screeching the Biz Markie chestnut "Oh baby You! Got what I neeeeed!"

simultaneously. Were it not for those bedamnable copyright laws, it'd surely

make the record.

 

14.

In the course of six weeks, I played the riff from Josh Wink's "Higher State

of Consciousness" on every instrument in the studio--to include the

FunMachine, the celeste, the Nord Lead, the Optagan, the Thai bell boxes,

both grand and upright pianos, and innummerable guitars.

 

15.

Elliot Smith was in town doing music for this Gus Van Sant movie, and we

persuaded him to come down and play a few songs that we might sample. The

idea was to get a melody that went through the entire curve of an Elliot

Smith song--strange turns and curveballs--in under thirty seconds. And like

the way a hiphop producer shifts the ground under a continuous loop, we'd

shift the context that the song was in.

 

We got him to sing into the Binaural Head, a microphone Tchad has that's

shaped like a human head and reproduces the way a human head hears. So, for

instance, if you're listening to a Binaural recording on headphones and the

sound of somebody walking through the room is on the recording, it sounds

like somebody's actually in the room you're in.

 

We did this kinda swell instrumental jam with Elliot playing piano, me

playing the FunMachine, Mark playing sampler, and Sebastian playing Hammond

organ. The next day I was listening to it on headphones in the control room

and I hear people talking behind me and I turn around to say wouldja mind

keeping it down a little?

 

Only there's nobody in the control room with me. Very trippy.

 

We haven't done anything of note with the Elliot recordings, but, you know,

if worse comes to worse I get to hear three new Elliot Smith songs before you

do. Nyah nyah.

 

16.

In summation: we've got a lot of work to do, yet, and this record isn't

coming out for a long-ass time. We're back with Tchad in January, to mix, and

hopefully to cut a couple more things. It's a very different record--there's

a lot of jungle in the mixture, it's a denser and more soundscapey record

than we've done before. Hopefully we're gonna be doing a collaboration with

the Reprazent guys--Roni Size, DJ Die, and DJ Krust--sometime in the

beginning of the year.

 

What else to say? We're happy fuckers, making sounds we like. Please stand

by.

 

--Doughty